December 2009
41 posts
A Change is Gonna Come- Ben Sollee
Happiness is...
Rowland S. Howard is dead.
wewillnotbeundersold:
Liver cancer. That’s depressing.
Phew. For a second there I read “Ron Howard.”
Got a lot of shit done today. Picked up my bridesmaid’s dress and it is smashing. Tonight has been unusual (in a sincerely amazing way). The first guy I ever fell in like with texted me (let’s call him “Mike”), after not seeing eachother for about 4 years, to tell me he misses me. He then proceeded to send me old pictures of us together.
It’s funny.
Four years ago I...
“Wanting to be loved is not a crime”
– Your mom
Don’t Think Twice, It’s Alright- Bob...
Apparently my grandma does not trust me not to buy heathen things with Christmas money because I was given a Snuggie. That’s right, a pepto bismol colored Snuggie (the “s” has to be capitalized, just like the “g” in “God.” It’s a sign of respect.) I still don’t get them. They don’t make any sense to me. I do sort of look like Princess...
I gave a homeless man five dollars today. It felt really good and I almost cried (because I’m a fucking baby).
I know most people will say that he is probably going to spend it on drugs or alcohol and I tell those people “I don’t give no fucks.” Because I’ve never been given a gift card by my grandparents and then subsequently accused of using it to buy slutty...
“When somebody so important leaves, the thing you have to teach yourself is how...”
– Rachel
Kylene to me: “You are amazing. I wish you saw yourself the way I see you.”
The day started off rough. Felt kind of sad. Have some sort of cold. Took a nap. Met up with Tone and everything was better. I only got to see her for an hour, but then I stayed and hung out with Greg and Rob (and other people). I had a lot of fun and laughed a lot. Feeling much better. It’s so nice to get out again and see people. I am quick to think I have no friends/no one likes me, when...
Worked on a Christmas present for my best friend with my mom today, cutting out magazine pictures and eatin’ candy canes.
Circa: 2 years ago
“Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it, for once in your life....”
– Elizabeth Gilbert
WatchA sense of humor has the same effect on me as ten beers in a dark bar.
“The city knows you better than any living person because it has seen you when...”
– Colson Whitehead, “City Limits”
Christmas Wish List:
Victoria Secret bra
Hard shell case for my beautiful Macbook Pro
Comfy pajama pants
New lens for my camera
Yoga classes
An apartment in Chicago for my best friend
Xbox 360
Jake Gyllenhall
Heartbreak does wonders for weight loss goals.
Menu for today:
one mediocre cookie
half a bowl of crazy* noodle chicken soup
beer**
*cue the irony.
**beer was not consumed alone. that counts for something.
SO.
Tonight I wrote my ex a letter telling him that I can’t be with him anymore. I finally told him I love him- something I have been wanting to tell him for a while now. I spilled my heart out in that letter. I left his place bawling my eyes out and then proceeded to drive around Chicago, bawling my eyes out. I didn’t want to go home and I felt the need to go to a bar by myself and...
“I can’t tell you this enough because you will never *hear* it but MY GOD you are beautiful and probably one of the best, most caring people I’ve ever known.”
I have the best best friend.
My tumblarity is pathetic. I guess I’m not as eloquent a writer as most people on here, so I stick to lurking. I should change that.